Vulnerability
I recently told a story about something I was ashamed of that happened while in school. I had a classmate who was beautiful, talented, smart, came from a well off family, and had a wonderful personality to boot. Of course, as a petty 17 year old with my own insecurities I was insanely jealous of her. As an insecure, immature 17 year old does; I helped to spread a rumor about her. I am 32 years old, and still think about this and what an asshole I was to do it.
When telling the story I shared that I often think about writing a note to this person to apologize; but I don’t want to bring up any past negativity for her when, from what I can see now, not surprisingly, she is absolutely thriving.
I’ve made choices in my life, and been in situations that I am not proud of. It is hard for me to say I have regrets. Ultimately every decision has taken me to exactly where I am today. And I am pretty proud of who I am becoming and beyond grateful for the people I’ve had and still have in my life.
I think part of that growth is acknowledging the motivation for the wrongdoings of my past and healing those things within myself.
All of that being said; this generation of women is giving me life. I have never seen so many females taking charge of their purpose, living out their passions, getting rid of insecurity while embracing their authentic selves, and HYPING. Each. Other. Up. It is like the female race has realized their collective power.
Gone are the days of competing with each other. Gone are the days of pushing your insecurities on each other. Gone are the days of spreading asinine rumors.
More and more my social feeds are filled with examples of women owned businesses. Women standing up for each other. Women taking up space and raising their standards. We are witnessing a modern Awakening that we are stronger together and any negativity we used to feel towards one another was likely driven by an insecurity that some other influence was telling us to have.
Women are working together. Women are changing the narrative and demanding more for their families, their professions, their purpose and all their relationships.
The most overwhelming responsibility that I feel as a mother is to raise good humans. That’s it. That is the goal. I want both my children to feel secure with themselves. I want them both to know that they don’t have to be perfect they just need to be authentic. I want them both to know every emotion they feel is valid; that they are seen, heard and understood. I want them both to cheer for themselves first. When you find peace in who you are; that confidence radiates out of you to touch everyone else.