Take “Two”
As predicted, I never figured it out. I’m writing this as now a mom of two with a 2-year-old little girl, and 4-month old little boy rounding out my family of three. In January 2022 I found out I was pregnant with our second baby. Shortly after my ex-husband and I separated. Then I moved back into my parent’s home.
It was a tumultuous year. I had feelings of shame, guilt and failure. It was 2022, my marriage had ended, our family dog had been stolen and turned up in New York, I filed for bankruptcy, and was living in the basement of my parent’s house. If there is a rock bottom, I’d found it.
Despite all of those negative feelings and obstacles I was facing what I will remember most about 2022, is the love. The love my parents showed when without hesitation they opened up their home to my family. The love of both my sisters who stepped up as my stomach grew bigger and I had to slow down while my toddler sped up. The evenings when my first baby and I cuddled together in a rocking chair and fell asleep feeling as safe and content as ever.
The gratitude for my oldest sister who asked if my kiddos and I would like to move into her newly built home with her. The warmth that spread through my soul when I met our little boy.
And ultimately the peace I felt when my oldest met her little brother for the first time and I realized…the three of us were going to be just fine together.
2023 has started, we are moving into our new home in just a few short weeks. I have big goals for me and my littles. I am approaching each day with intention. I am focusing on being present with them. I am creating a life where I can start my days with slow mornings and memories. I am grateful for my small circle and I am excited to see what’s to come.
What you will find in this space is a reflection of my priorities; resources for a more intentional life, a comrade in the messiness, a mom trying to do the best she can for her kids, advice for creating consistent habits and a bit of comedy amidst the seriousness of this world.
